Well folks, tomorrow is my “due date”.
I use quotations because I know how ambivalent due dates are. It is so funny to me because I was so focused on not having this baby early before the hubbs got here that now I’m afraid he’ll be really late! Sam was praying for me in bed last night because I needed a major attitude adjustment about being so uncomfortable. I asked him to pray for me and the shooting pain down my right butt cheek. Of course his prayers were like water to my soul because they covered so much more than that.
You see, I love my husband. I love our marriage. We have an amazing life together. And I think because of that, some fears started to creep in last night by telling me that having the baby would change our marriage for the worst and that we’d lose what we have. Anybody else have those fears when they were pregnant?
I know that having a baby will ultimately change things, but we’ve just been praying blessings over our marriage that we’d still keep each other a priority, we wouldn’t lose the romance, and we would have grace for each other when we’re tired and covered in baby vomit.
I’m beyond grateful for my husband and I’m beyond grateful to be pregnant. I know that God will burst our hearts even bigger with love for this baby. I just keep remembering my birth mantra, “The opposite of fear is faith” and I’ve been saying it over and over like a crazy person in the subway.
It is a very strange feeling to just be waiting on something so big though! I don’t really feel anything going on down there but I’m definitely getting more and more uncomfortable. Now that Sam has made it home, I’m ready. After my appointment tomorrow, I’ll start some natural induction stuff this weekend and next week! Nothing sexier than a 9 month preggo trying to have sex with her husband all the time, bouncing on the exercise ball, and eating spicy foods… that sounds like a Jerry Springer scene when the camera pans over to introduce the next ever-s0 classy guest.
So in addition to me leaving you with the image of shoving myself in lingerie, bouncing on a exercise ball whilst shoving a burrito in my mouth (you’re welcome)….feel free to send some prayers and good thoughts our way, we’ll keep you posted!